Ever noticed how one can feel lost,without identity,with all thougths swerling around you? At times it only takes the strong, self motivated to do what is out of the norm. The million dollar question is "How do I discover my purpose and how does my journey to self discovery begin?

My story could sound fictitious one but hey,everyone is entitled to their own opinion. A normal child (at least what most would define normal), with medium income parents, growing in a low income township best described me. Day after day, night after night, I woke up to what seemed like an endless daily cycle of sheer boringness. As if that had not been enough,my parents kept on hammering the importance of education in my brain, but in a confused state of mind l would always wonder that who ever told (or rather who ever MISSLED) my parents into thinking that I was of high rate intelligence! Sadly the answer to that, a zero was my score.

Adolescence kicked in and still I had no clue of what my identity was at that time .Characteristic to all that, was low self esteem, peer presssure, uncertainity and the unexplainable desire to be loved was the order of the day. I sought inspiration from virtually any source and was like a parisite who hoped to feed on any source that would jerk me in the correct direction.

On a certain day, not just certain but special or lucky l decided to tune into the radio station. I do not know whether I had woken up on the rigth side of the bed or had the gods been smiling but l just stumbled onto the radio station that was my ticket to my seemingly endless confusion. The program was basically talking about inspirational leaders of the world and people who left a legacy. They cited the likes of Martin Luther King, Mahatma Gandi and the world icon Nelcon Mandela.

Scales began to fall from my eyes as I noticed that I could be whoever I wanted to be as long as I put enough effort. I would like to pursue a career in the Sciences and a lot of people are discerning failure and disaster. But whether or not l succomb to fear of the unknown or not is still but a notion that I have to decide to consent to or not. I too am also in the journey to self discovery but one thing l know for certain is this...

I CAN GO ONLY AS FAR AS I CHOOSE TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Avril